Fourth Love Note

Love,

MM and I "celebrated" our second year together.  He celebrated his birthday with his family the same day.  He was in Ohio.  I was here in Wisconsin.  I made him a slideshow to one of my favorite love songs - Kate Nash's "I Hate Seagulls".  I sent it him via email.  He said it was very moving and made him shed a tear.

I think that being apart from each other is a lot easier than I imagined it would be.  Granted we've only been apart for two weeks total, I have a feeling that we'll be okay.  We talk everyday even when there is nothing to talk about.  I miss him most when I feel like laughing really hard.  MM has that sense of humor that I LOVE. 

The question has been asked if I am in love with him.  It's hard to say.  I feel so entwined with him that it's like we're best friends and lovers.  If that is love or being in love then yes!  I am in love with him.  I guess what is misleading is how everyone talks about love as if it is a overwhelming sensation that takes hold of you and makes you do dumb things.  I remember the first time MM said he considered me his girlfriend - my breath was taken away.  My heart skipped a beat and I knew that we'd be together for a long time. 2 years isn't forever, but it is a long time to be dating someone with no breaks.

And at the end of the day there is no one that I want to hang out with later in life.  I want him to be my best friend forever and be the father of my children and laugh at school plays with me and argue over just about everything and realize how much we love each other.

~

A woman got hit by a bus today and died.  And a small piece of my brain was jealous.  RIP woman.  I hope your family heals and celebrates your memory.